Realizations and Revelations: The Classy Trap House

I grew up in a very interesting environment. I do not live with regret about that. Living within the horrific and artistic confines of my family home made me the tough skinned, intensely good, instinctual aspiring chef I am today. As a young girl, I traveled bi-coastal between both of my parents’ homes. My father lived in the rich suburbs of San Jose, California. My mother lived with my great-grandfather on our family’s estate in St. Gabriel, Louisiana. My father’s home smelled like rice and fufu. Soccer was always playing on the television. His Jaguar sat beautifully on the curb next to his Volvo. He was a Nigerian immigrant creating a new life in America. My mother was a 4th generation Creole. She was an active alcoholic and occasional crack user. My father abandoned me multiple times as a child, so I was forced to be raised by my great-grandfather. Henderson, my great-grandfather was mentally unstable and abusive. He was the only one allowed to work until he retired in his early eighties. He was the President of the local church Usher board for sixty-three years, but we were not allowed to go to church with him. He would express that our attendance would damage his “perfect” image. We were only permitted to eat leftovers from church fundraisers, and only attend church services where he was being honored for community service in accordance with his publicity needs. He gas lit all of the women in the home all of our lives. We were more like his servants rather than his granddaughters. My aunt, Darla, was the woman of the house. She was the homemaker. She took care of young children, cooked lots of meals, and paid all of the bills while writing all of the budgets. Darla was a hard core crack user, drug dealer, and prostitute. She collected cans to hoard money for crack in addition to the money she was paid by my great-grandfather to run the household. We lived in what you would call a “classy trap house”.

Why would I call my childhood home a “classy trap house”? We had fine art. We had a piano. The same piano I was classically trained on during my adolescence. We ate Honey Dijon Salmon with Potato Au Gratin as a typical dinner. Henderson was an American Culinary Federation Certified Chef, and he prepared all of our meals until his late 80’s. All of the women, including myself, my mother, and my aunt wore designer clothes, designer handbags, and expensive makeup. In contrast, the house smelled like crack fumes and cigarette smoke. The home was filled with evil spirits that used to bind my mouth, ears, eyes, and legs when I woke up in the morning. I would sometimes wake up being blinded and paralyzed while trying to cry for help. There was constant yelling. Crackheads would peep through the bathroom window. Perverts would visit me when my aunt was too high to notice. They would stand so close to me and stare at my legs. I froze. Some part of me would beg my aunt to lose her high and save me. When I went to bed at night roaches would sleep on my face. Men would sleep with my aunt,and I would pray that they would not come in my room. There was fighting. There was stabbing. There were even a few attempted murders. Every night, I was beaten before I went to bed. I was forced to under eat so money could be saved on groceries for crack. I was forced to overeat as a matter of control.

I am 25 now. It has been four years since I left that environment. It was not until recently that I realized how much that environment has affected me long term. I realize now that I have become guarded. I have become hard. I have lost my femininity. I have been afraid to show skin. I have been afraid to socialize. I have been living in a bubble. I have been terrified to let anyone get close to me and know my most intimate thoughts. Secrecy became a survival skill. In the matter of dating, I emasculated every man that has come my way. I would enjoy hurting men’s feelings because I believed that men were not capable of loving someone. My heart was filled with pain. I was broken. My mind was altered. I hid behind bible verses and church pews. For a very long time, I was just grateful to have the freedom to be within the church walls. I found peace in ministry. Only when I performed a ministry task, I felt safe being kind to others. I have been afraid of children. Their innocence and gentleness intimidated me. I was afraid to hold an infant child. Fear would overcome me with flashbacks of my childhood, and I would give them back to their mothers. Anything I perceived as feminine seemed like an open door to be hurt. I was afraid to wear dresses out of fear of getting raped. I was afraid to be attractive in public. All I have ever concerned myself with was preserving my own life. It has not been until recent years that I have stopped living in fear, and let down my guard little by little.

I have one person in my corner that I can truly call my best friend. She told me one day that overcoming my past is my responsibility. Taming my fear is something I can change. Thus arose the question, how are you using your power? Power is defined as the ability to influence or change something. Strength has become second nature, but for the first time in my life I see that strength can become crippling when used improperly. Recovering from domestic violence is a process. It is not overnight. I have reached a point in my life where I am not afraid to wear fuzzy slippers and sun dresses. I can play with children. When it comes to dating, I am trying to become more open. I dream of being happily married with children. My best friend has taken the liberty to help me get my feet wet in receiving that blessing. We have begun the process of mingling with men just to get rid of my fears. My hopes are to achieve balance. I am content with being single, but I do not want to deprive myself of a healthy relationship with a man. This is a new experience for me. I am trying to move by faith, instead of timidity. The bible says, God does not give us the spirit of fear or timidity, but of POWER, LOVE, AND SELF-DISCIPLINE(or in other translations: power, love, and a sound mind)(Reference 2 Timothy 1:7 (NLT)(NKJV)) I do not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. I do not believe that I was born into the family I was born in by accident. I do not believe my upbringing has been absent of God’s presence. I do not think that my life has not been filtered without God’s touch. Instead my past motivates me to live my purpose, and turn everything I have survived into an asset.

Black Holes

You never seem to tell the truth

Yet you seem so safe

Words and emotions

Phrases of darkness

Spew from your soul,

through your teeth

and out comes another lie

You’ve continuously tried to exploit me

Calculation and a watchful eye

I continue to run for the hills

Sparing my precious life

You make me believe that there are truly evil people in the world

I am a good woman

The light from my heart

comes from God and it

screams to be released

as a combative

medication, meditation, restoration

a fight

of love

between good and evil

You will never suck me in.

Realizations and Revelations: #EntreprenuerLifestyle

Dear Diamonds,

I have been an active entrepreneur for almost four years now. I’ve thrown myself into my work. I live it. I breathe it. I believe in it. I pray over it. Over the years, I choose to lean on wisdom, multiple mentors, and Jesus.

My journey started at 21 years old when I decided to start a non-profit initiative called “Homeless Hopes”. At the time, I was beginning to overcome homelessness after being homeless a record 7 times from fleeing domestic abuse. I was beginning to overcome obesity and an active eating disorder. I was fascinated and passionate about culinary medicine. After witnessing the malnutrition of the local homeless community, I became committed to nourishing their bodies and minds in ways that they could not do for themselves. One day I told myself, “Homeless Hopes could benefit the general public”, thus Hope’s Kitchen Eateries was born.

In conclusion, I have found my purpose in life and I turned it into multiple brands. Now I operate a non-profit initiative for at-risk teens and youth, damaged young adults, and the homeless. I have my own culinary brand that hosts a variety of services. I have also developed my own music brand that compliments and promotes the culinary brand. I even have my own cleaning service that is currently underground and undergoing development. Below, I have listed scriptures that I live by that give me guidance, strength, direction, instruction, and discernment when making professional decisions. To all my fellow entrepreneurs, take these scriptures and run with them!

Scriptures for Entrepreneurs:

“Trust in the LORD and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.”

Psalms 37:3 NLT

“Commit everything you do to the LORD. Trust him, and he will help you.”

Psalms 37:5 NLT

“He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.”

Psalms 23:3-4 NLT

“Good planning and hard work lead to prosperity, but hasty shortcuts lead to poverty.”

Proverbs 21:5 NLT

“Wealth from get-rich-quick schemes quickly disappears; wealth from hard work grows over time.”

Proverbs 13:11 NLT

“Give freely and become more wealthy; be stingy and lose everything.”

Proverbs 11:24 NLT

“Yes, and everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution. But evil people and impostors will flourish. They will deceive others and will themselves be deceived. But you must remain faithful to the things you have been taught. You know they are true, for you know you can trust those who taught you. You have been taught the holy Scriptures from childhood, and they have given you the wisdom to receive the salvation that comes by trusting in Christ Jesus.”

2 Timothy 3:12-15 NLT

Hercules to Humanity

Did you know that the first celebrity chef was a black man?Hercules, Hercules!

What happened to my man Hercules?

Maybe Hermiesha got him in a headlock?

Maybe the shutters blowing in the wind are distracting him?

Maybe insecurity has him in a bind.

Hercules, Hercules?

Whatever happened to Hercules?

Fashion me this nonsense where all black chefs cook collard greens & neckbones?

I’m sorry but high blood pressure & insulin doesn’t appeal to me.

Appealing is what makes my heart smile.

Colors, poetry, eclectic truth

I mean what is Eclectic truth?

* E us for every triumph I had to overcome to rebuke each attack that made me wanna blow my brains out or soak in a pool of depression

* C is for come daddy, come daddy I need your attention before I give myself away to another hood dude with no exposure & will feel up any pair of long legs as long as he feels compelled to …. which is often.

* L is for let me live my life, l. o. l. & all that jazz

* E is for everybody hates Chris or rather everybody picked on Rachel from 7-19. 20 I cut the crap & became my own glorious firefly

* C is for the circumcision from the cataclysmic chaos & catastrophe of crackheads & cracklife. Healing deep. Healing deep. Just know my healing is very deep. Wounds pour out like blood gushing from the life of my very soul. Ripping up a new life. A new being. A new day. Hallelujah! Jesus has come. But what about that dude Hercules? Aren’t you gonna get to the point? If you listen he’s in the lyrics of this lyric one generation at a time. An ever recurring song of life & retaliation. Never growing outdated. Names changed. Blame to fame? What’s yo name shawty?You thicker than a snicker & I like ya accent. Your ambition is fire & that natural hair is making me do some thinking. Nah I’m good bruh.
Reclaiming my time. Reclaiming my time.

Every woman has her own inner Maxine Waters.
* T is for time is never wasted if you follow your own mind & trust in God

* I is for the ignorance of the beautiful bliss that awaits you in life if you choose to create it & take advantage of being an adult. You need to reclaim your time before victimization is your only legacy. Victim or Triumphant Overcomer . It’s your choice.

* C is for choices. Choices. Choices are the power of the voice you have. It’s your power in life. Sometimes you don’t have a choice but then Jesus comes in to create a miracle. Love.
Well, I’ve told you about life, love, power & faith. A little humor. A whole lot of reality. But what about Hercules?
Hercules was the first celebrity chef. He’s the only black master chef. He & his crew are responsible for bringing fine dining to Urban communities. He & his crew were the first to create British fusion cooking…. NOT SOUL FOOD! Hercules was a slave of George Washington. Purchased at 13. Ran away from the plantation after outsmarting President Washington with his own money & racism.

Recipe Archives: Aloe Vera Facial Mask

     If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you know that I love all things related to creative culinary medicine. A friend of mine recently gave me an aloe vera plant. After doing some research, I discovered that the syrup from an aloe vera leaf contains nutrients that improve the health of your skin. I decided that instead of spending $40.00 on a facial, I would create a facial mask recipe! It’s frugal, creative, and fun! After trying it, my skin was tight, soft, supple, and glowing.

You’ll Need:

• 4 large aloe vera plant leaves

• 1 tablespoon of honey

• 1 bowl 

• 1 medium sized cooking knife 

• 1 spoon

• 1 hot hand towel 


– Slice the thin parts of the leaf off & put them to the side

– Slice the thick parts of the plant leaf in half & separate 

– In your small bowl, take your knife & scoop out the gel of the plant (it’s okay to include the clear pieces of plant that may still be attached)

– After repeating this process on all of your leaves, add your honey & stir with your spoon

– Smear the gel mixture onto your face

– Place your hot towel over your face & let it sit for 2 minutes

– Wipe the aloe vera mixture off of your face

– Enjoy your pampered skin 

Dear Diamonds: Say NO to Manipulative People!

As a diamond of the rough, I have had a fair share of interactions with manipulative people. I have learned that they are sneaky, and if you are not discerning enough they can have a very toxic stronghold on your life. I have learned to say no to mental, emotional, and spiritual manipulation. Sadly, a manipulative person can often be hard to identify. I have noticed that manipulators will possess chameleon-like tendencies. This means that they will try to bond with you emotionally by lying about their lives in order to gain a hold of your emotions. They key to overcoming their deceptive tricks is to discern the manipulative behavior quickly, and put up the necessary boundaries for your own emotional, mental, and physical safety. I have listed below an article that teaches on how to eliminate a manipulative person from your life.


10 Ways To Eliminate Manipulative People

There’s always going to be people trying to shake your confidence—people trying to instill seeds of self-doubt within you. These people will do their best to manipulate you into believing that their opinions are objective facts. They’ll tell you that everyone in the entire world thinks you’re arrogant, crazy, or not good enough. Then they’ll tell you how concerned they are about you—about how you’re living your life, spending your money, raising your kids, on and on.

If you don’t change in exactly the way they want you to change, your life will be ruined. That’s what they want you to believe. The truth is these people don’t want to help you. They want to control you. They want to change you, not to better your life, but to validate their lives and to keep you from outgrowing them.

Don’t be confused. Manipulative people are not worried about your interests. They’re worried about their interests. Once you let manipulative people in your life, they can be extremely hard to get rid of. The key is having enough confidence in yourself to give manipulative people the boot as soon as you spot them. Here are 10 strategies for eliminating manipulative people from your life:

1. Ignore everything they do and say.

Manipulative people are meant to be ignored. These people flip flop on issues, they’re slippery when you try to hold them accountable, they promise help that never comes, they make you feel guilty constantly—everything you don’t want in person.

When dealing with a manipulative person, the biggest mistake you can make is trying to correct them. By correcting them, you sink deeper into their trap. Manipulative people will use frustration and confusion to bait you into conflict. They want to get you emotional so they can see how you tick.

Once they know the things that trigger you, they’ll use them to influence your actions. A better strategy is to ignore them completely. Simply delete them from your life. If you can’t delete them right away—like if they’re a boss, coworker, or family member—agree with what they say and then go do your own thing anyway.

2. Hit their center of gravity.

Manipulative people are constantly using their own strategies against you. They’ll become friends with your friends and turn them against you. They’ll dangle some small reward in front of you and make you chase it continuously—every time you get close to it, they’ll pull it away. They’ll hold past actions over your head forever. On and on.

Stop letting manipulative people use their strategies against you. Instead, turn the tables. Create a strategy of your own and hit them where it hurts. If you’re forced to deal with a manipulative person who keeps making your life hell no matter how hard you try to ignore them, you only have one option, find their center or gravity and attack it. This center might be the manipulative person’s friends, followers, or subordinates. It might be a high level skill or an advanced understanding of a particular field. It might be a particular resource that they control.

Either way, find out what their center of gravity is and make it yours. Create allies with people close to them, recruit people with their skillsets and knowledgebase to replace them, or siphon away their prized resource. This will throw them off balance and force them to focus on controlling their life, not yours.

3. Trust your judgment.

You know what’s best for your life better than anyone else. Too many people go around asking for other people’s opinions about everything. What should I do with my life? What am I good at? Who am I?

Stop looking for other people to define you. Define yourself. Trust yourself. What separates winners from losers is not the ability to listen to other people’s beliefs, it’s the ability to listen to one’s own beliefs. By setting your own beliefs and holding onto them strongly, you prevent manipulative people from affecting your life. In this way, your beliefs will act as a blockade, keeping manipulators ostracized and out of your way.

4. Try not to fit in.

Keep reinventing yourself. The idea that consistency is somehow virtuous or tied to success is a misconception. Manipulative people want you to be consistent so they can count on you to push their agendas forward. They want you to show up every day at 9am and work for them for minimum wage. They want you to get home on time and clean the house and make them feel good about themselves.

Assembly lines are consistent. Prison is consistent. Consistency is how manipulators keep you in a box. It’s how they control you. The only way to keep from being manipulated is to actively push against all the boundaries that others try to set for you.

Stop trying to fit in. Instead, work to stand out. Work to be different in every possible way and to never stay the same for too long. Personal growth, by definition, requires a lack of consistency. It requires constant change—constant reinvention.

5. Stop compromising.

Guilt is a useless emotion. But it’s a powerful tool. Guilt is one of the weapons that manipulative people will use against you. They’ll make you feel guilty for past failures and small mistakes, or they’ll make you feel guilty for being prideful and overconfident. Any time you spend feeling happy or sure of yourself, they’ll use against you. No one should ever feel too good about themselves, they’ll say.

Another weapon that manipulators will use against you is doubt. They’ll work to instill a sense of self-doubt within you—doubt about your abilities and your worth. Their overall goal is to knock you off balance and make you second guess yourself. Manipulators gain power in this state of uncertainty. Their influence becomes stronger and they are twice as likely to convince you to compromise on your values, your goals, and yourself.

The solution is simple—stop feeling guilty. Stop doubting yourself. When it comes to your own life, you don’t owe anyone anything. You deserve to feel good about yourself and to be proud of your accomplishments. You deserve to feel a strong sense of confidence and self-belief in what you’re doing. Compromising on any of these things is not moral or enlightened. Rather, it’s the road to self-destruction.

6. Never ask for permission.

It’s easier to ask for forgiveness than permission. The problem is that we’ve been trained to constantly ask for permission. As a child, we had to beg for everything we wanted—to be fed, changed, and burped. Throughout school we had to ask permission to go to the bathroom, we had to wait to eat lunch at a designated time, and wait our turn to play with toys. As a result, most people never stop waiting for permission.

Employees around the world wait to be promoted and wait for their turn to talk. Most are so used to being picked that they sit silently in meetings, afraid to speak out of turn or to even raise their hands. There is a different way to live.

What if you did whatever you wanted to do whenever you wanted to do it? What if you stopped being overly concerned with politeness and making others feel comfortable? What if, instead, you live your life exactly the way you want to? These are all things you can do at any time.

Manipulative people want you to feel beholden to some imaginary rule or ideal that says you cannot freely take action without consulting either an authoritative figure or some group. The truth is you can disregard this sense of confinement at any time. You can start living your life today radically different that you lived it yesterday. The choice is yours to make.

7. Create a greater sense of purpose.

People driven by destiny are not easily fooled. The reason manipulators continue to thrive in this world is because so many people are living purposeless lives. When your life lacks purpose, you’ll believe anything. You’ll do anything. Because nothing really matters.

People who lack purpose are just killing time. There’s no rhyme or reason behind how they’re living their lives. They don’t know where they’re going or why they’re here. So, to keep from going crazy, they work at pointless jobs and stuff their brains full of celebrity gossip, reality TV, and other forms of useless information. They stay busy to avoid the feeling of desperate emptiness growing inside of them. This busyness and emptiness empowers manipulative people.

There’s a sucker born every minute. If you’re constantly distracted, constantly consuming useless content, constantly trying to stay busy—you’re the sucker. Manipulators control purposeless people by peddling useless information and activities to them. The only way to escape this fate is to develop a sense of destiny. Destiny destroys distraction. When you know you’re going, manipulators can’t hurt you. They can’t distract you or misguide you.

8. Keep taking new opportunities.

The world wants you to put your eggs in one basket. Everyone and everything around you is telling you to lock yourself into a mortgage, a car payment, a stale relationship, a single office job, on and on. They want you to stay staked down to a single opportunity for the rest of your life.

Nowadays, being ambitious is often looked down upon. Staying hungry is often seen a sign of weakness. Why can’t you be content with what you have? Why are you so greedy? This is what manipulative people will ask you when you express a desire for more. They will call you selfish, arrogant, and prideful. They will make you feel cold and awkward, like you are inhumane and heartless. The truth is they want to keep you in your place. They want you to stay at the same job and live in the same place for the rest of your life. They want you to stay dependent on them and the systems they control.

The only way to stay independent is to constantly seek out and create new opportunities. Keep applying to new jobs, keep starting new businesses, keep building new relationships, and keep chasing new experiences.

9. Quit being a baby.

If someone fools you once, shame on them. If someone fools you 10 times, you’re an idiot. Stop letting manipulators walk all over you. Stop being a punching bag. No one feels bad for you and you’re only embarrassing yourself. Have enough self-awareness and self-respect to say no to manipulative people.

You can’t just walk through life blaming other people for your problems. You can’t just walk through life oblivious to the people trying to manipulate you either. Yes, negative and manipulative people exist. And yes, these people will try to use you. But that doesn’t mean you get a free pass to make mistakes and be used.

No one can manipulate you without your permission. You’re responsible for your own successes and failures. If others outthink or out-strategize you—it’s your fault, not theirs. Be accountable. Learn from your mistakes. Don’t keep trusting the same slippery person over and over again. Cut them loose. Delete them from your life. Commit to surrounding yourself with likeminded people who aren’t going to use you.

10. Bet on yourself.

Take a chance on the one thing you can control in life—yourself. When it comes to making tough decisions, too many people limit themselves to considering just external factors. They consider the financial and relationship consequences of a situation. But they fail to consider the effects their decision will have on their personal happiness and sense of self-worth. As a result, they take chances on other people when they should be taking chances on themselves. Then they wonder why they’re miserable.

When you only take chances on external people and things, you place yourself at the mercy of those people and things. This makes you vulnerable and ripe for manipulation. Instead, you should be taking chances on yourself. In any difficult situation you’re faced with, don’t ask questions like, “Who is the better person to side with?” or “Which option is more likely to be successful?” Instead, ask, “What do I want to do most?” and then go out and do it.

If, for example, you’re faced with an opportunity to start your own business or stay working at the same dead end job, don’t stay at the job just because the pay is only slightly pathetic. Don’t stay just because the relationships are only slightly miserable. When you do this, you’re betting on external factors. This is always a mistake. A better strategy is to bet on yourself.

You’ll never regret betting on yourself. Sure, you’ll have to take full responsibility for any mistakes you commit. Sure, you’ll have to hold yourself to a higher standard. But you’ll also be fully responsible for your own victories too. You’ll continue to grow and achieve greater and greater levels of success.



Recipe Archives: Quinoa Dressing 

You’ll Need:

• 1 box of Harmony Quinoa

• 1/3 cup of sliced White Onion

• 1 package of Turkey Sausage

• Extra Virgin Olive Oil

• 1 medium-large Pot

• 1 medium-large Skillet

• 1 13×9 inch Baking Pan

1.) Boil the quinoa in a medium large pot on a medium high heat. Once it starts to boil, reduce the heat to a low flame & let it simmer. Add water as needed until the quinoa is fluffy & tender. Drain excess water from the cooked quinoa

2.) After the quinoa is drained, simmer your sausages in a skillet with 2 tablespoons of EVOO & onion over a medium heat

3.) While the sausage is cooking, add 1 cup of EVOO to the quinoa and stir 

4.) Once the sausages are thoroughly cooked, slice them into 1 inch bites

5.) Combine your sausage, onions, and sausage drippings to your cooked quinoa and stir

6.) Pour your dressing into the baking pan & bake in the oven at 400 degrees for 20 minutes

7.) Enjoy your beautiful creation!
Pairing Suggestions: Baked Sweet Potato Fries & Fresh or Frozen Green Beans  

Recipe Archives: Chicken Alfredo

You’ll need:

• 1 lb of chicken tenderloins

• 1 jar of Classico Brand Alfredo sauce

• 1 box of whole wheat penne pasta

• 3 cups of raw spinach

• 2 teaspoons of honey

• 2 tablespoons of cayenne pepper

• salt

• pepper

• 4 tablespoons of Extra Virgin Olive Oil

• 1 large skillet or wok

• 1 medium large pot

• 1 cutting board or extra plate

• 1 cutting knife 

1.) Fill your pot with water and heat to boil and salt the boiling water with 2 pinches of salt. While you’re boiling the water heat 2 tbsp of EVOO in your skillet

2.) Slice your chicken into cubes and toss into the heated skillet. Once the chicken starts to brown at the bottom, add your cayenne pepper & 2 tbsp of pepper

3.) Once the water is boiling add your pasta and heat until soft

4.) Stir your chicken until it is fully cooked. Once fully cooked add your sauce and spinach leaves and heat on a medium fire

5.) Once your pasta is soft, drain the excess water in the sink 

6.) Once all of your spinach is wilted, stir the sauce mixture. Once sauce ingredients are blended, combine it with the plain pasta.

7.) Stir until blended well

8.) Add remaining oil & honey. Stir.

9.) Dig in! (Salt to taste if needed)
Pairing Suggestion: Spinach salad with EVOO, pepper & curry powder

Chef Diaries: Broken Pieces of My Soul

     I have realized that food is more than an edible substance that I consume to stay alive. It is more than plated poetry. It is the song of my soul. It is proven to provide fuel for my physical, mental, and emotional creativity. Albert Einstein is quoted stressing the grandiose difference between creativity and  intelligence and how creativity trumps pure intellect. When prepared correctly, food is a healing balm for my soul. I would go so far as to say that without food Rachel would cease to exist; and creativity would be held captive to bad rubbish.

     I have been in situations where I was forced to eat in a stereotypical American fashion. As I expected, my soul became captive to its poison. My peace was robbed. I need fresh fruit and fine, pressed oils. I need whole wheat and whole grains. I need the nourishment of salmon. I need the soft kiss of Greek yogurt and the song of sweet tea, pasturized oranges, and pressed apples. Removing these items chokes the very breath of my existence.

     When I cook in my accustomed style, I breathe slowly, deeply, light, and surely. I am transferring my emotions and mental attitudes into a pot or skillet and fastening them creatively on a plate to mimic the attitude of my spirit man. You might scoff, “That is just an overly passionate lyric”. I am here to tell you that any true cook can indentify with my perspective. For us, we reflect our insides with food, and then resubmit them to the body. It is a form of medicine. It is an act of self love. That level of functioning is our sanity.

Vibin’ Vivian

Her hips twist like licorice

Sweet black substance indeed

Heavenly hair 

Curls undefined

Unbound, unbrined.

Angelic lova!

Thinking of ways to love

How to live…how to love

Vibin Vivian on tha block

Her children stand and bless her.

Dudes be jockin.

Bad spirits follow to harass her….

Lips ruby red wet & wild from Walgreens

Ring finger on lock by the most high until her hubby came to scoop her up

Vibin vivian what they call her round the block

Never had her nose up

Always hugging children

Tutored my daughter after school 

She got straight A’s

1 B 1 B 1 B

The one math teacher tried to hold her down 

1 B 1 B 

That 1 B****

She came with me to confront the principal.

Let my daughter live

Let my sister give

My sister open your eyes 

We’re alike intertwined 

Colors of the rainbow 

Ribbons in the sky


So divine

I’m so high

Live life live love

Live hard live love or die young

My heart opened. Mesmerized. Trance like.

1 B 1 B

I’ll always remember that 1 B

2 3

You see she’s 23 

2nd grade is where I met her

She grew up

Such a sweetheart

What is a vibration?

Activity of the limbs, the heart, the tounge

The style, the swag

Fingers on a harp intertwined for a higher purpose

Make me golden, make me black, make me hard, make me soft, make me alive

Vibrations are in your actions.

What do yours say about you? 

Vibin Vivian coming at you over the written 1’s & 2’s. . . . .